taking a breather

i took an unplanned break from exercise this week. it was definitely needed, but it still caused me some internal distress. i needed to step back and reassess my food/exercise balance. after amping up my exercise routine with weights, i didn't really change my food intake and my body was like "hell no!"... leading to overeating in compensation for the calories burned by the additional exercise. over the last week i have rested and found where i need to be with a very light routine... thus i know where i need to be once i start a more vigorous exercise schedule again. idk about anyone else, but i think it comes down to over-thinking... i still to this day want complete freedom to change my mind... meaning i fret over eating enough food during the day to fuel a work out if i decide suddenly to skip it that day. i need to get over myself in many ways still... that's just one neurotic example, lol. i need to realize one day is just one day and the overall trend is what matters.

that being said... i have 5 weeks to prep myself for the 10k. i plan on taking the week right before the run very easy, so 4 weeks of gradually increased run lengths are in the works. the farthest i've run outside is 4.5 miles and 5 miles on the tready. i've been perusing 10k training plans online, and it seems like 3 runs a week, every other day, with the last being longest and stretching your comfort zone (either distance or pace). i'm not really concerned about pace, but i'd like to finish the first week with a test distance run. 6.5 miles or bust!

oh and i forgot to mention that aaaaaah! my best friend from college got engaged!! to another one of my best friends! it's picture perfect and i will be a bridesmaid. i am thrilled to the gills for them, but like most 20-somethings i suddenly feel quite behind! me being the single bridesmaid kinda freaked me out... well, i suppose i have about a year and half before the actual wedding to catch myself a guy, lol. i suppose i'm lucky that no one has had any babies yet! and you know what? i am super pumped to be a bridesmaid! a year and a half ago, it would have made me nervous and uncomfortable. i am so happy that i feel healthy, happy and comfortable enough in my own skin (a work in progress) to be genuinely excited to share the experience with my two great friends. i will even wear a sleeveless dress if that's what she wants! and that's saying something :)