having a goal

i think everyone loves the idea of a goal. after losing much of my weight in a relatively short time period, i was spoiled with results. yesterday, i watched a weight loss vlog and was reminded of the journey, but also how hard it actually was. lately i've been brushing it off and i think remembering the struggles helps remind me of the whys. i like to have a goal to keep my momentum. my goals are now mainly fitness related, and although i don't think it's harder than when weight loss was my main focus, it's a struggle of a whole new kind...

i think everyone loves a challenge, and i'm no different! to that end, i'm super excited to say i've found a 5k run/walk that fits my schedule! it's thanksgiving day morning, and all the participants will bring food donations and the money from registering will go to local food banks. i'm very excited, and kinda scurred, but it's a fantastic way to start off thanksgiving day. not only because it's an awesome way to help out the community, but it will also put emphasis on health... on a day, like most holidays, normally considered an all day food fest. i have to figure out what to wear, and i think i'll test out the course pre-thanksgiving to know what i'm getting into :) i'm sure there will be lots of families and a very relaxed atmosphere, so it should be a good time. yay!

i haven't been around much, but i wish you all well and i hope to get back into the swing of blogging soon. i seem to not have much to say... or when i do, i can't blog! lol.

content

i'm feeling really great this week. and there are many reasons i shouldn't... the epic fail of spinning, the confused puppy waking up at all hours of the night, the fact that next weekend is a work weekend (so i'm on day 3 of working 12 days in a row) and the scale has been a little higher than i want it to... but i'm feeling good today and i'm figuring it must be november :)

spinning class was a fail, but didn't actually happen... the time slot i chose only had me sign up, so they said i could join a different one. but i'm either working or at puppy class during the other times. i'll have to wait til the spring session (where i'm sure more new years resolution people will join or the puppy class will be over) to suffer through it. i think i'll try and sneak in some time in the spinning studio beforehand to get an idea. it sounds like you either love it or hate it, and i might as well find out which side i'm on! i'm still running a few times a week, but i'm worried about winter. i get into that "bundle up in a blanket and watch a movie" mode when it gets cold out. btw i get cold so easily now! i guess my higher weight provided insulation or something because i think my body temperature is very different. interesting. it's also very frustrating to not have clothes that fit, it's awesome, but sad when your favorite things don't fit anymore :( i wore a packer's fleece sunday and it was like i was wearing a blanket. sorry for being that jerk who's like "i'm too small to wear this!" but it blows.

halloween was good times. i was sue from glee, basically a blonde wig and a tracksuit, lol. i decided to not drink at all and i had loads of fun. towards the end of the night, they busted out rock band and the new beatles game... i had never played it before and loooved it. all i did was sing, but it was so much fun! we killed it.

faux weekend

i'm at my part-time job! so far so good. it's really long hours every other weekend, so this weekend isn't real. although i can bring my computer to work and watch the packer game, so i'm not complaining.

last night i ran 5k in 33:40, best time yet and boy did i feel it! tallulah has somehow gotten into a schedule of having to go outside at 4am, and that's no good... so we're experimenting with feeding her at a different time. also at puppy class they said not feed the puppy dinner before class... and it's at 6pm! and lasts an hour! she is gonna be ravenous.

i signed up for an indoor cycling class at the y, it starts nov 2nd. i've never been on a spinning bike, so this should be hilarious, fun and/or painful. i will report my findings at a later date.

wading

it seems like lately, i'm just wading. i work, it's not terrible, but it's not challenging. my life feels like it's at a stand still, and i need a jump start. then i remember the mountain of student loans in my name, and push those thoughts to the back on my mind.

why!? why would i just drift? i don't want to, i see it and i act as though i can't help it. i obviously need to take some action, and i'm not sure what that is yet... be it a new creative outlet or pursuing more social activities. i saw a posting for a racquetball class at the y... maybe something like that... both social and active would suit me. i really want to run an official 5k, but the fall dates all conflict with my new weekend job. in addition to me being scared, lol. i need to expand my horizons. i've been on the look out for book club, but it seems only middle aged ladies rock a book club. maybe i'll venture to start one of my own. suggestions are welcome!

size 7

no, don't get too excited... i definitely don't fit into a size 7 pair of jeans. but for me, this size 7 makes me feel just as elated. :) so if anyone is planning on proposing to me, 7 it is!

i know i've mentioned my previous sausage fingers before and idk what ring sizes mean to most people, but for me... when i was at my biggest, the options for rings were few and far between. i was solidly a size 10, sometimes 11. in addition to not being able to find any, who on earth would want to display something on a finger that they'd rather no one look at? i felt that way about myself in general, and being able to now buy rings/clothes/shoes (i recently discovered i can wear knee high boots, they zip up and everything) is somewhat a vanity thing... but it also proves how much my mind is also changing. i will wear this cute/pretty/sexy thing because i am confident enough in myself to be noticed. idk if that quite makes sense, but i'm chugging away at this process still... learning and growing one day at a time.

in 2 days, i will have been at this for a solid year. holy buckets.

boston quickie

last weekend was amazing. my college roommate and i flew to boston saturday morning and returned sunday night. the trip was centered around a rockapella concert at berklee. we had vip tickets to see the sound check and meet them before the show (i bought them for her bday). her favorite member is leaving the group at the end of the year, so it was perfect timing.

it was a fantastic trip, but i definitely ate and drank my way through boston (and i liked it). here is my lunch from sunday, and don't be fooled there's like 2 cups of mash potatoes under there... idk what irish bacon is, but it's delicious. and then i assisted my friend with her fish and chips, lol.

on sunday afternoon we went to the last regular season red sox game! any time in fenway is a good time. the weekend was so wonderful, and then this week i was offered a part-time job! it's every other weekend, pays well, is near home and is in a laid back atmosphere... i'm excited! i start this sunday afternoon for training. that's my week in a nutshell!

tomorrow i'm going to a wedding west of milwaukee and then driving down to chicago for the jonathan coulton concert! it's gonna be a good saturday :)

bright deliciousness

i was particularly fond of my food the past few days, so i thought i'd share the wealth :) first is my 3 egg pepper and sausage omelette. after spending the weekend with omelette making geniuses at the cabin, i've been on an omelette kick. i like that the cooking process involves a level of difficulty (which makes me think of like olympic diving, lol). i think i'm improving at my skillz, ha. then i had some baked tilapia with zucchini, squash and tomato. i'm so accustomed to having red, yellow and green on my plate! i'll have to create some new combos to keep up my color pallete.



and here's tallulah looking innocent...

i'll post again later this week about my super exciting weekend plans... i love a mini vacay!